February 21, 2000
I am going to begin starting
my diary of the PH illness that I was diagnosed with in March
1992.
I'm not sure where to begin so I guess the best place is at the
beginning. In January, 1992 I was the President of our sons
high
school choral group. We were planning a trip to the East Coast
for the choir to compete at Kennedy Center. I was feeling some
shortness
of breath and decided that I needed to get checked out by my doctor
before I went on this trip. We had taken the choir to Europe
in
1990 and experienced a little shortness of breath but my husband
Lee was with me and I felt very secure. I just thought that
I was
out of condition. I had not exercised like I should have been doing
so I figured that the reason for the SOB was because of that.
Well
when we were planning the trip to the East Coast I was not feeling
any better. Probably a little worse. Since Lee was not going
to
go with us I decided that I did not want to become a burden to
anyone so I made the appointment with my gastro doctor.
February 22, 2000
The gastro doc sent me to
the cardioligist who did a cath on me. That is when they told me
that I had PPH. Later they changed it to SPH because of the liver
disease I had and ended up having a shunt put in. So the SPH was
from the shunt.
We were told that if I
wanted any quality of life of what life I had left, we needed to
get out of the smog. We lived in Southern California at this time.
So we picked up our life and moved to a state (Texas) where we knew
no one. The doctors in Calif. said to get out of the smog but they
didn't know about the humidity in Texas. Does the same thing. Oh
Well.
This all took place in
1992. Then the SPH pretty took an even keel just being on CCB's.
Until 1997 - when my heart started racing. Had a really bad time
for a few months until the docs decided that I needed a pacemaker.
So that procedure was done in Dec. 1997.
Then last March I found
a lump in my breast and within a week and a half I had had a masectomy
done. Since it was found so soon and taken care of immediately they
were able to get all of the cancer. I now am on a medication for
5 years for that.
All the while the SPH has
been going smoothly. I do have SOB. I can't walk any amount of distance
and my activites around the house are pretty normal except for cleaning
the floors. That one isn't bad tho.
The main thing that I have
learned over the last 24 years of illness is that I TAKE CONTROL
OF MY LIFE. Ultimately God is in control but I made sure that I
know all that is going on with the doctors, labs, etc. I have a
large notebook that I keep all the lab work in it. I have never
let a doctor tell me that he would not give me my records or copies
of labs. I demand them. The docs I have now are great about it.
They already have a copy for me when they come in the room.
I give praise to God and
his grace for seeing me thru these years. When I was told 24 years
ago in an ICU room that I probably would not come out alive I gave
it all to God. He has taken the control and has seen we thru everything
that He has allowed me to go thru.
I know for me that I would
not be the person I am today had I not been allowed to go thru the
last 24 years. My faith, my testimony, who I am. My faith has grown
so deep that I don't doubt Him. My testimony is such that it has
reached other people who have had less problems to be able to deal
with what was given to them. In the Bible there is a scripture that
basically says "He will Not Give Us More Than We Can Handle"
I believe that. But I also have added a postscript to that. Mother
Teresa one said. "Thank you Lord for trusting me enough to
handle the load you have given me". That is who I am with this
illness.
Lessons that I've learned:
1. Life is very valuable
2. I've learned to see the beauty around us. 3. I have learned that
no one cares more about me living as much as I do.
So in all of his infinite
wisdom He knew what would make me the person I am today. For the
I Praise Him.
I also know that there
isn't a doctor on the face of the earth that knows when I will go
home to be with my Lord. Only He does. Therefore I don't listen
to what they say about death sentences. I have a life sentence and
I plan on living it well.
February 22, 2000
Just alittle about who I
am.
My name is Kathy Evans,
I am 53 years old. I am married to the most wonderful man on earth.
His name is Lee. He is the one who believed with all his heart what
the vows meant 35 years ago. I has lived up to them and the promise
to me and has never wavered from them.
I am a moderator on the
PH-Inspire list. This is new and I am grateful for the opportunity
to help.
I also am on a few commitees
at our church. We go to First Baptist Church. Lee is the Minister
of Music.
Also in his spare time
he is on the City Council and does custom woodworking.
We have two children. Kristi
age 30 who is married to Brad. Kristi is a child phys. and Brad
is an airline pilot with Southwest. Our son Michael is 26 and is
in the middle of seminary to become and preacher.
I guess I could have told
you when they were little ones what they would do for a living.
Kristi always like to psyco analize her dad and me and Michael loved
to preach at us.
I thank God that He allowed
me to live to help Lee raise our kids. We have been truly blessed
with them.
Kathy passed away on May
26, 2001.
Kathy went home to
be with the Lord yesterday. She did not suffer nor was she in
any pain. The last thing we heard from her was laughter. Know
you all were such a support to her as I'm sure she was to you.
Kristi, Michael, and
I are going to miss her very much, but we know she's in a much
better place now where she can breathe.
-- Lee Evans
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